I want to say, so man things:
How grateful I am, how honoured, thankful, confused, doubtful, overwhelmed, frozen.
I can not explain all these things at once but I capture the root of myself.
*if you are given everything in the world you believe you can get, all that is left is the unlikely and the known impossible.
There is a work here called 'the swarm' when your mind races twice as fast as you can process about many abstract fears or pressures and you are left to try and live rather than process something so fast moving, but it will always catch up to you.
I have been sitting on it for sometime, because I am always unsure but my friend convinced me.
So I have been reflecting and I hope in time I return to express these things.